Today has been an uneasy day all along. I have made several mistakes in my life but the worst are those for which others had to suffer. And if the sufferer is very close to my heart then it pains even more to think of the cruelty which my beloved had incurred through my misjudgement.
It was raining since morning and urban life which so much depends on public transport was in shambles. It all started when my wife came back home after her work yesterday. She works very far from home. There was no bus on her way back, no taxis either, rickshawvallas are the victims of mood swings and they let the weather take over their choice entirely. Thats just the beginning. She had to go through extreme hardships to getback home after 3 gruelling hours of travel.
My first reaction after seeing here having gone all this was, "Why does she have to go through all this?", "Why can't she find some job which is much closer to our place?". In this fit of anger, I advised her not to join office untill the rains subside, which might mean 2 - 3 months of delay before she can start work. Fair enough?? Not exactly, because since today morning I have had to fight through a lot of internal conflict. "Why am I making the situation even more difficult for her?", "She isn't a kid, all she wants is my cooperation and matured approach towards finding a solution instead of giving excuses for not letting her join work". I almost feel like her enemy at the moment. A silent and heartless trickster who enjoys confining his beloved in the cage only to kill her later after getting bored of her.
Such a shame....such a shame...
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evolution of the indian man from provider and protector to a companion and soul mate.
the equations in the indian marriage are changing and as a woman i love this post outright.awesomely romantic i would say.
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